I took this at the same time as ‘bleed my brain until I finally get it’ but came back to it at a later date to finish off. I was having a really bad day, feeling super stressed and confused as to why I felt that way, when it seemed like there was nothing in particular that had caused it. I’m used to spending a lot of time by myself and I enjoy having that time, even if I don’t end up using it as wisely as I wished. I’m not usually a very stressed or angry person, so when I felt this build-up of stress and could feel anger bubbling up, I knew I needed to take some time for myself to figure out what was going on. The most important thing for me was to keep my head clear and rational, so that I didn’t blame or take out my emotions on anyone else. I’m not usually a very emotional person, so when I have any strong emotions, particularly strong negative emotions, it’s like my body doesn’t know what to do, so just cries! The little flowers in these two pictures are physical representations for the emotions and thoughts spilling over because, until then, I hadn’t been listening to myself and unintentionally ignoring that need to spend time alone.
2020